so then...

I finally came to the reason...the reason of you on leaving and run away...

Curang yaa..? Pintar.. Kenapa ngga ngomong? Kenapa ngga cerita? But yes, I do believe that God and time has their own way on letting us know the answer..

"Lagi di BI.. Mau jemput.."
Did you know how I feel by that time?
Aku sempat ngga bisa nangis lagi..But I cried that time... Had a hard day at work and decided to call you, another phonecall that I know you would miss.. But then you picked it up and said such words...
Aku pikir aku akan tetap menangis malam itu, aku bahkan mencari-cari sakitku sendiri karenamu... You failed.

Kau tidak bisa lebih buruk dari ini. Bagaimanapun kau yang pergi, and i didn't do anything. You are the one who lied, you are the one who left. You didn't keep your promise, you cheated on me.

But I'm okay. Thank God I never gave anything to you more than I could bear. At least I know who you are now after all that you've done.

Thank you. I might have been broken, but it energized me. I might have been hurt, but it only last for two weeks. I might have cried, but I'm coping tough. I might have regrets on knowing you, but I learned much. I might have missed you, but it's going on worthy. I might have let you go, it's the best i can do. Best for me, for my own self.

=)